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cheers for friday!:)
i like how its a friday night but im stuck at home...writing this blog. i am so glad this week is over, but my friday is not going to well:(

1) i got allergies. im allergic to everything starting from apples all the way to dust. i dislike this very much.
2) i should be at a taylor swift concert but im not. and i really thought i was gonna go and i really am in love with her. but i guess it was God's plan and someday, he will let me go meet her:)


so i was suprised at others' response to my last blog and it made me really happy:) im glad that people enjoy reading my blogs. anyway, my life hasnt gone through a BIG change since last Saturday, but i am seeing progress:)

That night on saturday, i took my bible and this book called, "Pathways to his Presence" (its a reallllllly goood book. i recommmend it very much.) and this book is like a everday plan lesson thing and it tells you what scriptures to read and just little tips on building a relationship with God. I've had this book awhile but i just never finished it. so i opened it to May 16 and to my suprise, it was talking about the importance of prayer and how if we dont pray, we are empty and we face a lot more difficulties. "Draw near to God and He wil draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded" James 4:8 i thought that this fit perfectly with my situation and at that moment, i realized that this was all part of God's plan. i was so happy and proud of myself:) now i read the bible everyday and even though i want to read my twilight, i get to tired and i turn of the lights, ending my day with a nice little prayer:)

soo school is boring as usual and the pressure of raising all my grades has drawn over me and i get depressed a little more everyday. but i think about the summer and even though this summers gonna be tough too, im gonna have fun. doing watever. im gonna do lots of things that i never have done and its gonna be memorable:) lettme know if u wanna make memories this summmmmer! live love laughhh


Yes. i took this picture. no photoshop or anything. this is natural. beautiful, huh?


Peace:)

so personal

You know when you heard about someone, but you don't really know them, but you kind of do because of other people's remarks and saying. Well today, I met someone who did not know that I existed, but I knew that that person existed...That does not make ANY sense. haha. but you get what i mean,, right?

I remember that person saying something like, "my weakness is the fact that i am a people pleaser. I always try to please everybody, and thats pretty much impossible" SOMETHING like that. and that got me thinking...

I have a mom and a dad. But they are so different from eachother and its sometimes hard to please them both. My dad is a pastor and VERY spiritual. My mom grew up with churches and is somewhat spiritual. Although they believe in the same God, the way they look at things and the way they have their connectin with God is different. and me, im stuck in the middle, and because i am so confused on what to do, my relationship wiht God has been distant lately...very.

I pray every night to God. Thank him for giving me this bad/wonderful/okay/exciting day. it always depends. and right after, i list all these things i want or i want to accomplish and in a few words or so, i tell him how much i love him.

But thats it. I never find the time or am lazy to read the bible. and as i write this, i want to punch myself. before i go to bed, there is always someone saying "Hannah, man up and read the bible" "Hannah, just for 2 min., read the bible" but, i pick up a twilight book instead.

and what does this have to do with today? i dont know. but talking with this person and listening to that persons thoughts and seeing all that the person has done, it made me realize that i need to change. not change my hairstyle, or the way i talk, or my personality. change the direction that i am heading right now. i need to turn around and go a different road because i know that if i keep living like this, i might lose my faith in Jesus and ill become someone who..i dont know who ill become. but i know that its not someone that my parents want me to be or someone who God wants me to be. its gonna be tough cause my dad will want me to do this, and my mom will want me to do this, but i know that if i pray, God will find a way. and in the end, its going to please everybody...


that felt good. and im not just saying this. im gonna really try. im gonna rebuild my relationship with Jesus. Thanks for inspiring me, _________.

peaceee

longgg dayyy

what a long week.
what a long day.

so im youtubing and just trying to get bored so i can sleep, when i get a message from JOE:) he wants me to do another blog.
how sweet:)
i never knew people read them. hahaha. yay(:

anyway. im fed up with school. it can go down the toilet. and teachers too. :D

my goal for this week is to get Taylor Swift Tickets:D
its soo hard though..but im gonna go. no matter what. its gonna be a tight nightt:)

anyway. todays a thursday. the longest but best day because tomorrow is FRIDAY:)
oh, and im running for President against my friends again. a repeat from freshman year. but its alright. its a nice competition for me and i think im going to learn a lot from it. but still, Vote For Hannah:)

Peaceee<3

man up

its weird how a friend thinks they know how you feel and then the next second, they forget you are standing right next to them and starts babbling away. thats messed up.

so i didnt make it to varsity cheer. it was gay. i was pissed. i got over it.

im still pissed though. not cause i didnt get in, but because some dont take into consideration that even though i say its okay. i still feel a bit weird and its weird to hear conversations about how great next year is going to be in front of me. that sucks.


next year is going to be different and its going to be a change for me. i hope that change is good.

peace

reality sucks

soooo. this week is the week after spring break, so it pretty much isnt all that great. i wish i can turn time around and PAUSE because last week was amazing and i had a BLAST. Last week, i went to COSTARICA:)

great place, funny people. thats all i have to say:D

anywayyy, today is a thursday and im BEHIND in euro homework:( so i haev to fiinish and catch up on everything TODAY. this week is also cheer tryouts so yea, its tiring and im a little afraid i wont make it cause i dont have my back hand spring. but oh well. if i dont make it, no practices and a free period:) yay! school sucks and i neeed to raise my grades AND study for euro. ughhhhhhhhh. im gonnna cry just thinking about it. anyway, the only person that reads this is Janine sooooo

ily JANINE:) <3
PEEEEACE

Songs in my Head

Today is a Monday. it was a good monday though:)
it was my Mom's and my cousin Sharon's birtnday andd today was Open House. and after open house, we ate at FroYos which was pretty goood:D

well i was looking through my ipod i found soem very weird songs...

Raid on the Castle-Narnia:Prince Caspian
Corner of the Sky-Pippin
Why Do You Let Me Stay Here-She and Him
Weed Party- Band of Horses

(i have more buttt too much.)

anyway, these songs are so random/weird.
the narnia song, hahaha:) it makes me fall asleep, and DONT JUDGE. i reallly like it, i recommend to people!:D
Pippin song, its really weird because the version that i have is old and the guy sounds funny, but if you hear the recent one like THIS YEAR, its a reallllly goood song!:) and SHE AND HIM song, they are weird. the girl from YES MAN and teacher in bridge to terabithia or however you spell it is the singer there and shes goood:) im impressed. and Weed party, its not what you think. ;) band of Horses is a WONDERFUL band. go check them out.

right now, i am digging Gavin degraw, Jack's mannequin, Runner Runner, Jon Mclaughlin, and William Fitzsimmons.

anyway. homework awaits me.
PEACEEE:)

Crabby Patties

This is ASB. Its an oldd picture but it stilll looks cute:)

So today was a crappy day. I was not very happy and it got better later on but my sixth period just ruined it for me ALLLLL over again. ): So today was Prom Court nominations and I wanted to give the crowns to the princes but the seniors wanted to do it and i got sad cause I wanted to do it but they were seniors so i got over it. but then, i guess i looked pretty sad/pissed and like ASB started to say stuff like "you have 2 years Hannah!" "Why are you soo sad?" and like stuff like that that kinda made me u know, embarassed. like i was totally okay with not giving out the crowns but i guess my face showed differently and they started to feel bad for me and i reallly didnt want them to feel bad for me cause i was OKAY. and like when the spotlight is on you, you start tearing up so then i started to tear up and that made them like think that i was REALLLLy sad but i really wasnt so they were saying stuff like "You can give out one crown!" and u know, treating me like i was a baby. and i understand them and i love them but i was FINE. i REALLLLLy was. and this made me think about something.

The way I act in front of them, maybe its not a good thing cause the way i see it, i act really..immature/childish/weird and all that stuff. soo they thought that i was really that when im really not. i might seem like a 5 year old who sings hannah montana in a 15yearold body, but thats just my hyper side. like i dont get upset easily and i am a chill person. i dont hold grudges for a long time and if you really know me, i am somewhat mature. and today, i felt as if i was kind of "underaged" and i didnt really like it so that made me kind of..pissed. but i wasnt pissed at them, i was pissed at the fact that i seemed so immature and them treating me like a baby.

but dont forget, ASB is my family and i reallllllllly am thankful for them. All of the seniors, even the ones who make fun of me, are really special and they are going to be missed, A LOT. I wish that today didnt make me seem like a childish baby to them and i hope that they treat me normally on Monday (picking on me). i enjoy the "mean" jokes and they make me laugh. i wonder if i become a junior next year, this will be the same, or if i am the one that picks on people. haha:) anyway. this alll happened 2nd period.

6th period.

my teacher is so mean. she is a jerk for suree. im nice to her but i guess that doesn't give a damn to her. she needs to chill out and teach the class something instead of having breakdowns every other days.

i love my math teacher mrs. rabe<3

it might seem crazy but she really is a great example to follow and really approachable. i can talk to her about ANYTHING.

well this was my day!

PEACEEE