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I posted something on tumblr. and found out that some people weren't happy with my beliefs. kind of mocked it.


It hurt a little. It shouldn't though cause people's comments about my faith and my life and me shouldn't affect me. But they are my friends and it makes me more sad that they don't know the truth. And I don't mean to sound like some "I KONW THE TRUTH AND YOU DON'T HAHA" but seriously. It is a really sad sad sad sad sad thing when people don't know who Jesus is. Who created us. How this world came to be. WHY there are horrible horrible things in the world.

Yes, it looks horrible. But you know what?
we are all sinners. We were born sinners. We can't do anything about that and because of that we are in this world called Earth. So beautifully made but in this word is surrounded by sin. And this earth will NEVER be perfect until Jesus comes down and takes all the saved ones to the new Heaven.

This isn't from my head, it's from the bible. I would quote every single thing I just wrote right now but I have a midterm to study for and the only reason I wrote this is because I was so frustrated with what I had come across on tumblr. Anyway, I'm probably just too stressed and overreacting. oh well.

If you read this and think I'm crazy, I don't care. Cause I'm not.

Chocolate

I haven't blogged in a while.

I've been so used to going to tumblr and doing lil rants about my day...I'm sorry blog :(


Well if anybody reads this...

I am now a senior. It is year 2011. Egypt's President stepped down as ruler. I have nothing to do. I'm in love.



Well, maybe not IN love but... no, yes. I am in love.

He is this guy. Has a great sense of humor. We've met a couple of times. I felt a connection. He's kind of older than me.


Oh, and he's in a band that is rising in popularity.



I honestly would love. I would DIE if I got to go to lunch with Johnny. Just learn a lil more about him.


It sometimes really hurts and gets me really depressed when I realize that I may never get what I want. Why would he want to do anything with me? But I keep hoping that if it really is meant to be... God will put him in my life. And if we don't end up becoming lovers...that is fine. But I would like for us to become bffs.



Today is Valentine's Day. And I thought about Johnny... I wonder who's in his mind!


peace up A town

crawl

"Hannah! Woahhhh, come loook. Quickly! woahhhhh"

Thats my dads way of getting my attention. And of course I would go and see that his little "woahs" were because of a stupid spider on the ceiling. I rolled my eyes and walk back into my rooom. 7 minutes later, my dad walks in and then quickly walks out. And I, being me, wouldn't care why he came in. I igonred him.

Turns out, he killed the spider and put in next o my computer. OF COURSE HE WOULD DO THAT.
I screamed and screamed until he took it away. My dad thinks it's funny that I scream.


okay that's my story.
peace

fever

Me: we meet again.
creature:*buzz*
Me: so you wanna play games?
creature:*smirks*
Me: FINE. then come get me.
creature:*comes closer*
Me: GET AWAY YOU MONSTER
creature:*smirks and flies away*
Me: ohhhh, no. no no no no. come back here you little-
Mom: Hannah, what are you doing?
Me: MOM, DON'T DISTRACT ME. I GOT THIS
Mom: *signs* go do something more productive. go read.
Me: MOM, PLEASE DON'T TRY TO BREAK MY EYE CONTACT RIGHT NOW. I DON'T WANNA LOOSE HIM AGAIN!
Mom: *shakes her head and walks away*
Me:*scoffs* thought I'd get distracted, didn't ya. well I ain't dumb. I've got my eyes on you..
creature: *goes the other direction when, poof. disappears*
Me: NOOOOO. WHEREDYA GO! NONONON, THIS IS NOT GOOD. NOTT GOOD

10 minutes later...

Me: *Sitting on the couch, but something catches her eye* so you're back...you really do like me
creature: *laughs, and starts dancing*
Me: yeah, go ahead. go do your little dance. but once i get you, I'M GONNA BE DANCING!
creature: *rolls eye and lands on the floor for a break*
BAM
Me: HAHAHAHAHA, WHO'S LAUGHING NOW!? WHO IS LAUGHING NOW!?
creature: -silence-
Mom: Hannah, you need help.


this happened tonight for like...45 minutes.
the creature was being annoying, and I had to get rid of it. I know, I know, I shouldn't kill...but... :(


So I diagnosed myself with the...
SCHNOODLE FEVER :D
Maddie's dog Jet is adorable and I fell in love with him like two weeks ago. Now I want my own, and my parents are being poopy heads:(

I'm going to war with the APs coming up this May. wish me luck:D

hopefully, by the end of May, my mind will be at
peace

moooody

so right below me is the blog I wrote like two weeks ago, but I never finished it...

-THE BLOG I WROTE TWO OR THREE WEEKS AGO...-
my titles for my lil blogs are random. I stare at my screen and think, "what shall I name this one?" and then POP, it comes to me and then I type it next to the Title:


The last couple of weeks, I was so inspired to write blogs but I never got the time! :( Now I don't remember what I wanted to write about and this really makes me sad:/ I'm busy right now too, but I have to write before I forget EVERYTHING and then I'll be discouraged to write a blogs forever and it'll all just go downhill and I do not want that.

so things i wanted to write about...

When you go on the freeway towards Glendale from La Crescenta, you'll see this sign. 5 minutes after you get on the freeway,you'll pass this hideous, offensive sign that says..."Atheists United"
CMMON!?!? I don't see the point of this sign. You know, signs on the side of a freeway cost a fortune!! or they are cleaning the highway and gettin the sign as a "thanks" but why put "ATHEISTS UNITED" there? A "DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE" or "WATCH THE ROAD" can be better and more beneficial, no?!
-END OF THE BLOG I WROTE TWO/THREE WEEKS AGO...-




It's funny how I was writing about this "sign" because recently, someone clever (and whoever did this, HIGHFIVE!) got white spray paint, and covered the "A" of the Atheists! :D so now, it just looks like "THESITS UNITED"
HAHAHAHAHAH, I find this very enjoyable:)

So today is the last day to my spring break. I literally did NOTHING this spring break,, it's quite sad. EXCEPT yesterday, I had dinner with the wonderful Hannah, Madison, and Kailey. It was nice and refreshing(: But today is Monday, the last free day and I'm stuck at home. Plus, I don't have homework because my teachers were very very nice this year.

Recently, I got tested at the doctors and the results that came out weren't quite nice. The test revealed that...
-I had way too much stress
-I have a weak heart
-my intestines are weird or something
-blah blah blah blah
yeaop. so if you intend on scaring me or something, think again because I might have a heart attack and die:)


I had so much other things to write, but I'm not in a blogging mood.
I'm frustrated.
:)

peace

butterflies

no its not "that" time of the month for me. I'm stressing, but its not something I haven't felt before.

but still, I'm ready to lock myself in my room and start crying.

sounds depressing? well I am depressed. I like smiling and laughing with friends, but when I sit down and go back to reality, I feel like I'm going to barf. I'm in a bad mood at home and my parents just aren't getting it. This is so frustrating because I don't know whats going on with me. My right arms being spazztic, my heads on fire, and my nose is being realllly annoying.

what to do with me? Maybe I'm going crazy.
I hate being moody and cranky and lame.
I don't have the time to be moody and cranky. I should actually have more energy so that I can complete all the tasks I need to do with a BAM.

but I don't always get everything I want, and I have to deal with that.
So.., I have to deal with this feeling for..how long? who knows? But I hope that time is soon cause I wanna start smiling again for no reason and start dancing.

I hope theres a name to my weird symptoms...except maybe bipolar. ha.ha.ha. just kidding.

I just realized that what I'm going through right now, is just like what Ron was going through in the last book when he was being all moody and depressed. it was because of that stupid necklace horcrux he was wearing around his neck. AT LEAST HE HAD SOMETHING TO BLAME HIS ACTIONS ON.
I don't, except just me.lame.

Hope I get some peace this week.

Yellow

So in my english class, we started "Huckleberry Finn" and I've just really gotten into the southern accent now. I know this might make me sound crazy and weird but when I hear the accent,all i can think of is this Mom in a questioning room with the FBI. Imagine thiss. Everything they say is with a southern accent...

Mom: My son did not kill a man.
FBI: I don't know what to tell you m'am. All the evidence we've found lead to him.
Mom: I know my son. And if he really did kill a man, I woulda known. And if I woulda known, he woulda been beaten by me and his a** stuck in jail.

Can't you imagine this in a tv episode for CSI or somethin. It's realllly random, but ...I don't know. It makes me laugh:)


So it's February. and soon, I'll have to take the SAT which I am NOT looking forward too. It is quite depressing..and now I will stop talking about it.
February is also the month where we have TWO 3-day weekends. And it's Valentine's Day.

You know, back when I was a kid, Valentine's Day wasn't that much of a deal to me. Except that my dad used to bring home chocolate and once when I was nine, my dad brought home this HUGEEEE doll of a dog. It was bigger than me! and I was so happy and felt like the luckiest kid in the world. Valentine's Day seemed cool back then. Now, when Valentine's Day comes, people go, "I feel so depressed, I don't have a man" and even at one point, I heard myself say, "aw crap, it's Valentine's Day" But I think we should'nt be like that anymore. Valentine's Day, people should be happy because it gives you an excuse to eat chocolate and to go out. EVEN if the chocolate isnt from a guy. Do I even make sense?
ah whatever. My point is. Don't get depressed because you don't have a boy to drool about. Just think of it as a happy day where you get to eat chocolate.


Sometimes, when I think about God, I automatically start worrying about others who don't believe. And that's a problem. A man once told me, "You have to take care of yourself before you start worrying about others" And he's right. Whats the point if someone cares and worries about the health of others when themself is sick and weak? Whats the point of me worrying about all the non believers when my relationship with the Lord is weak.
I have never doubted my faith about Jesus. But I have had days where I obsessed about other things and never thought about Jesus until the end of the day when I was ready to sleep. Just a prayer before bed isn't enough. And that troubles me. It sounds soo easy when I say, "Today, my focus will be on the Lord. I will stay on task." but I think thats the biggest challenge for me. Somtimes I wish that all the technology would have never been created becaus I think they pull me away from God.

I am dissapointed in myself at the moment. If you are reading this, please pray for me because I need all the prayer that I can get.


F-bombs should be illegal in my opinion. It's a harsh word and it can offend people.
I have a pimple like thing in my mouth, below my lip. It hurts when I eat food, especially oranges:( I think that's why I'm in such a depressed moood.




Woah, if you read this, you can see that the first half is light and the second half is a bit dark. thats strangee.

strange is my middle name.
HA

Peace